Ignite the passion

I have to sprint. I am taking too much time easing myself into Medicine. I can't afford to be tardy. I have yet to meet someone like Dr Thawdar, who at the end of a teaching session, can make me feel in awe (seriously, IN AWE) of the new knowledge acquired. Not that I already know everything and that the doctors in this posting are not teaching me anything. They are teaching me something new everyday, but not in the way that Dr Thawdar can do it. She can teach in such a way that everything you have read in the books seems to come alive and be REAL, not just in the books; She can coordinate all the diverse information so well and correlate them to that particular case, so that you not only learn 1 disease but you learn absolutely everything there is to know about that system! Every knowledge she imparted sounded so fascinating. And naturally, when things fascinate you, you remember them better, the more you want to know more about it and inevitably, you fall head over heels in love with what you are doing and learning. 

There is so much to learn in Medicine posting that I know for sure it has the potential to fascinate me. But...but... I feel somewhat that the passion has not unleashed itself. I need someone, an enthusiastic doctor, who can teach well, to release that zest in me..to ignite the passion. I feel very inhibited...'constipated' in a way. You see how important your educators are?! 

I absolutely hate the doctors, who teach us in a hurry, like they just want to get the teaching session over with. And so far, that has been the situation in all our BSTs. At the end of a session, I always find myself thinking "Come on, you are a subspecialist. That was the best you can do?!" I mean, we don't know what we don't know. You are supposed to teach...teach... There is only so much we can ask because we DON'T KNOW what we should know! Exasperation to the max!