I wanted to get that pair of grey jazz shoes at Vincci today. I have had a crush on them for about 2 weeks, since the first time I laid my eyes on them when I came back to Kudat for the weekend. BUT, they didn't have my size anymore, not even in the other 2 Vincci branches in KK. Yes, I made them call the other branches. I was tempted to buy that pair, which were 1 size too big for me. Let's see if I'm still thinking about them tomorrow.
Then, I moved on to find a blouse, something nice and ladylike, that is not a T-shirt. I was even ready to splurge on it. Believe it or not, I couldn't find one. I told Yuh Ing that I really didn't want to spend on any more formal clothes. Formal clothes are the easiest to buy nowadays. And the odds of you (or rather, me) looking good in formal clothes are definitely higher than the other types of clothes. I mean how good do you want to look in formal clothes, which you wear to class consisting of 12 people, or to the hospital during which your clothes will be largely concealed by the lab coat?
Anyway, I ended up buying formal clothes again. A blouse (but it's formal!!) and a pair of slacks. Hopefully, they will fill me with some enthusiasm for the beginning of my Paeds posting on Monday.
On a totally different note, I found out that I'm not so healthy after all. The worsening and continuous shoulder and back pain were part of a more serious (relatively more serious, but not very serious, I HOPE) underlying pathology. Sigh...I don't know if I'm saddened or depressed by the news. It's just...I don't feel good and happy about it. It's like constantly tugging at my heart, more specifically, my mood. Maybe I ought to go get that pair of shoes after all, to cheer myself up. The formal clothes obviously didn't do the job. It's not like I can go swimming to take my mind off things like I used too, now that I'll be going to Paeds. I should probably find a new distraction.
Sigh...Oh that was a real sigh. I was really sighing at that moment.
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